my self-love moment
Looking at her, you wouldn’t see the hurt or pain she’s experienced. You wouldn’t know the doubts, fears and flaws she sees when looking in the mirror. At times, I feel as if I can remember the bad times so…
recovery: 1 year and 5 days
It’s been 1 year and 5 days since I received that call from my doctor letting me know of my diagnosis. Breast Cancer. Although I’ve been through so much, I still hesitate to say those two words - not because…
my ‘tree’ self
Throughout my Recovery process, it’s been important for me to heal - not just physically but emotionally as well. My cancer had taken me on the most difficult journey and guiding myself back together after almost a year of disruption…
january: recovery
I’m quickly approaching the one-year mark of when I was diagnosed. Of course, there’s a lot of emotion and anxiety there and because of that, for the month of January I’ve been focusing on Recovery. What it means to me,…
dear diary…
I don’t think I’ve fully mentioned this to you yet, but I’m currently going through hormone therapy for the next 5 years, in the form of a Lupron injection each month and Anastrozole (don’t ask me how to pronounce that),…
fuck you, 2018!
2018 has been one motherfucker of a year. I was diagnosed with breast cancer at age 34, spent most of the year undergoing treatments and in the process, lost my hair and whatever sense of self I had come to…
gigi hair-did (2.0)
I took a little hiatus from writing in November. I needed some time for myself, to not only decompress but to understand what my new self is all about. My everyday life has been somewhat routine, with going to work…
been there, beat that
Cancer-free. Survivorship. Thriver. I’ve been somewhat afraid to use those terms. Not because of their meaning, I’ve worked so hard to get to this point - to consider myself a survivor, but afraid I might jinx it.. it can feel…
hair gone wild
This past year has been full of new experiences, some so soul-sucking-awful, while others have been surprisingly good. One of those awful moments was of course losing my hair during chemo. Barely two infusions into my treatment plan, my hair…
radiation update
Mood: so over this shit I just completed treatment 22 of 30. And I’m so over this. I really want all of these treatments and interruptions to be done with but I know it’s really apart of my life now,…