Mood: so over this shit

I just completed treatment 22 of 30.  And I’m so over this.  I really want all of these treatments and interruptions to be done with but I know it’s really apart of my life now, unfortunately.  Moving forward, I know I will always need to do something for this, whether it’s preventative or to take action. Shit. **positive vibes, positive vibes**

Back to the radiation treatments – because I’m doing these treatments everyday, Monday thru Friday, it has really become apart of my routine now.  I work in the mornings until lunch, drive over to the hospital, scan my card for check-in, change into my gowns, wait to be called, then about 10 minutes later, I’m done.  It’s the waiting part that can take a while. Sometimes my machine can get backed up, patients may need longer time or arrive late, so it can push everything back a bit. For the past two day, I also tried going back to work after my treatments (since they’ve been relatively quick).  On Wednesday, I went to bed by 9:30pm if that’s any indication of how my day went LOL. I know it sounds crazy and I have a bad habit of pushing myself sometimes too hard but I want to get back to some kind of control over my everyday life.

Side Effects.

(Day 5 vs. Day 22)

I started noticing a change to my skin about 2 weeks into my treatments.  My skin was starting to turn a little pink at first and now it’s red, a little itchy and looks like a bad sunburn, especially under my arm.  It doesn’t hurt and it hasn’t blistered – so that’s a plus, right? I’ve been feeling a tingle of fatigue, especially in the afternoons and nights.  So on those days, I try to just rest when I get home, take a short nap, maybe even a bath to calm myself. 

I have a few more days of my entire breast area being treated, then I’ll switch to a booster treatment which will focus just on the area where my tumor was and this will happen during my final week. With those booster treatments coming up very, very soon, I have another CT simulation today.  They’ll get my positioning and markings (I hope no additional tattoos).  More to come on that.  

Above all else, I’m still hanging in there…